Re: Hate Thread
It's motherFUCKING Christmas time, and yet the world around me seems to want to do everything in it's power to piss me off if I so much as glance at the news.... or, hell, try to do anything other than eat, sleep, and read books.
Then on the other hand a Christmas spent doing nothing besides eating books in your sleep would be too convenient.
And we can't have that, can we? Because everything has to be perfect - it's fucking Christmas after all. And since it is, we'd all better have unrealistic/idealistic expectations on how people should talk, behave and even FEEL.
I got into a huge argument with my mother yesterday simply because it appeared that I didn't have enough fun - which is of course entirely my fault since, y'know, I'm SUPPOSED to have fun. Which I did have, by the way. BUT EXCUSE ME for not showing it in between blowing my nose and generally having a fucking fever.
But if there was one thing that bugged me it was most definitely the fact that in a time where you're supposed to calm down a little, to spend some quality time with your family, the season forces you to experience hecticness at it's finest.
I've always felt some sympathy with poor Ebenezer Scrooge. If we ignore his avarice for once he just wanted to have some goddamn peace and quiet. But no. It's Christmas. You're supposed to feel THIS way and think THAT way.
And the funny thing is, although the general problem lies in his obsession with money, in the end everything is solved with happy thoughts - and his money.
Although I could probably go on that Santa Clause may be nothing more than Coca Cola's advertising fatso of consumerism, these would only be words that have already been spoken a thousand times before. Let's just say that I too have kind of a difficult relationship with this time of year. Don't hate me for it.
I really didn't want to write anything about Christmas at all this year. But writing helps I guess. Even if it's just incoherent crap like this.
If I could change anything about the things I dislike I would change the name of this whole thing to something like "family appreciation holiday". Maybe that would help me and others to wind down, to care less about meaningless symbolism and rituals and just be grateful for the things you already have.